Not Best For Me

Closing the door in my future, no more will I stand in line to let some man define the terms by which I live. No thank you I'd hate to be the one to wait for mine until yours is done. I refuse to compromise my needs to survive so you can prioritise your own existence.

Ronnell

The other day I was on youtube checking my subscription updates.. and the "superficial" video came on. I wasn't sure exactly how I felt about it. Part of me was like is he being serious because those colors were obviously too light for him. But then I quickly ruled out that option and I started to question if he waas trying to get a point across.

The video reminded me an awful lot of another youtube that I subscribe to by the name of Gregory..



This brings up a struggle in me that I am used to dealing with. I like to experiment with femininity and cosmetics etc so that flawless look is something I rock at times. I feel like that interferes with my conscious minded side that is critical about prioritizing all of my values. So its a conflict that is very apparent to me, and it's something I constantly struggle with.. Even if that video was not a direct challenge to Greg but I definitely made me think about it and reflect.

Xoxo <3

Brilliant

Holding so much Truth to My Life <3

My Bady Daddie

Miss Desrae Duncan has been dubbed with the title in a way that is much more queer than one may think initially ;D. Seeing as how she aced as my studly counterpart for almost a year I am more that qualified to do this analysis of how she is quite the young stud muffin.

This term for Desirae holds meaning beyond the taditional father of my children meaning. Here it is more of a deeper much gayer explanation. She is so smooth, so charming, with such a way with the feminine that she can accurately be considered a "daddie" in the lesbian sense. & I can speak from personal experience in that she has done a flawless job at sweeping me off my feet a number of times lol. Yes, of course I am too much of a diva to fall hea dover heels for just anyone so you know this here is legit.

On a more serious note I really look up to her because she steps far enough outside her proscribed gender role for me to consider her my equal(in regard to taking risks) beyond just our sexual orientations. Some of our favorite times together for instance involved me in full face make-up/low rise slim fit denim and her in chuck taylors and a hoodie. The love of my life, who protects me, who supports all of my gayness, and is patient enough to explain sports to me.. My Baby Daddie (young smooth charming queer woman)Desirae is the business! Aha, just so you know. Love you Rae!!

Xoxo Your "Baby Boy" < 3

An Escalator Next to the Staircase

The other day I was waiting underground for the train and I was really aware of my surroundinngs..so much so that I ended up identifying personally with the stairs that I glided past on my way down. It was a strange yet unreal connection for me to have made and it still sits with me now.
I noticed that the two have the same purpose (that is the stairs and the excalator) but the go about it in different ways. They're generally made of the same things but the slightest alteration seperates them so greatly.
I gathereed it as me being the escalator moving in a more progressive direction in a world dominated my staircases set in a more traditional norm of life. We as in all people are human and ultimately want the same things in life.. happiness, stability, love, comfort, etc. but the fact that we are not all exactly the same or that some of us cater more to the unexpected divides us.
Stairs and escalators are both meant to get people form one level to the next. through this all I must still maintain a clear head and a positive attitude. As opposed to geting hung up on the differences as the wrong minded folks do I rather preoccupy myself with the things that make us one.
Sure I myself serve as a variation of what can be bu that shouldn't be the defining factor of me. That isn't to say that diversity is not a beautiful thing to be embraced because it so is but it shouldn't be the foundation of our relationships with one another. I believe in a life of us as humans with an infinite capacity for our beings (gay straigt black white brown queer rich middle class etc.) as opposed to a bunch of stair cases with unmovable roles.

It I Weren't a Boy

Aha! Xoxo Lauren <3

Homotography

It's important for me to rid the taboo around homo sex and sexuality..