Thursday, June 18, 2009

Released: Out From this Cage of a Closet

I spent several years working under this system. This system of oppression, this system of forced choices, this system of strict gender roles with little to no wiggle room for personalization. I couldn’t do anything about it because if I fought back against it I couldn’t be a man anymore. That went on continuously for over sixteen years of my life. It was not until a bit earlier on this year that I gave up on putting so much effort to blending with the crowd. It wasn’t until now that I started to all myself to define, for me, what it means to be a full human. I gave up on it all. I gave up the image, the language, the behavior, the women and the falseness of my being. I acme out of the closet and it felt like such a load off. I could finally breathe and not worry about how my body was positioned when I exhaled. Now, I could put on what I really want to wear because I want to not because I’m “supposed to“. I let if go I gave it up I released myself from my gender role to embrace my sexual orientation. Now I am free to be me and outside approval is irrelevant.

Life's much less complex; since that's over. I'm not the best actor so I'm glad I was able to drop that role. haha

Bunches of Love <3
Ronnell ;~]

1 comment:

  1. you are amazing and I'm glad you've finally seen what I see in you. You've grown so much and you are now a inspiration to me.